All I Am Is Yours

You stood before creation, Eternity in your handYou spoke the earth into motion, My soul now to stand. You stood before my failure and carried the cross for my shame My sin weighed upon your shoulders, My soul now to stand. So what could I say? And what could I do? But offer this heart, Oh God Completely to you. So I'll walk upon salvation, Your spirit alive in me This life to declare your promise, My soul now to stand. So what could I say? And what could I do? But offer this heart, Oh God Completely to you. I'll stand With arms high and heart abandoned In awe of the one who gave it all I'll stand My soul Lord to you surrendered All I am is yours. "The Stand" Jaime Jamgochian, Hillsong United

I’ll stand with arms high and heart abandoned, all I am is Yours

But ... I’m not very good at giving to God.

I go through fits and starts. My version of the God inspired Hillsong hymn “the Stand” is roughly as follows -

“I’ll sit with arms slack and heart indifferent. About, (maybe?) as much as a third (but often less) of what I am is Yours. In denial of the one who gave it all I’ll sit My soul Lord to you hidden All I am is mine. You can have what’s left. On sundays. And possibly a few other days, depending ...”

I don’t know about anyone else, but I so easily lose focus. I get distracted by so many things. A good bottle of wine. my new fixation for Korean dramas (weird one, that), the kids, the pets, a good book ... I could go on ...

I am not saying that any of the things we do are necessarily bad. Relaxing in front of a good Korean drama (ask me about them ... you know you want to!) with a glass of merlot with my husband is often necessary after a taxing day.

But when we allow the things we like to become our obsession, then we tend to lose focus on Jesus.

This past week I have been sick. Holed up in my bed I have survived on a mix of sleep, over the counter drugs, copious amounts of water, the tender ministrations of my husband, the somewhat abstract attention of assorted daughters and my trusty laptop.

I have watched far too many episodes of my favorite korean drama (no, really ... they are good!) But ... maybe I am becoming a little over dependent?

I am feeling better now. Time to get on with real life. And real life involves abandoning all that I am. All that holds me to this life. All that I would rather do than spend time in Jesus’ presence.

Time to refocus on the vision of Church of the Apostles - to impact the community of Fairfax with the love of Jesus.

Time to stand, with arms high and heart abandoned to God.

All I am (my time, my money, my life) is Yours.

There are so many ways we can do that. Learn more by clicking on all the relevant links about the Destined for Joy campaign. Ask questions. Join a small group. Be involved.

God can use us all, if we stand before Him, abandoned, willing and ready to serve.

Lynne Harris
Media/Information Team